I just dun understand why somethings you want so badly will eventually never be yours. I always believed perseverence works, but somehow its not working right now. No matter how much i try to tell myself its fine, its alright, i've never felt any better. Its getting harder and harder to cope when the exams are getting nearer. I feel like a stretched rubber band about to snap anytime. Cant i get my life back? Cant anyone understand how much this means to me? I wish i can cry it all out and somehow the problem will be solved, as if its going to work. My sis is just so busy with her life, i cant get through to her. She doesnt have time to talk to me anymore and has stop trying to understand what i'm going through. Somehow i've stopped blabbering to my friends, I dun wanna bother my friends anymore, i should not and i dun wanna affect their life with my emotions. I dunno what to do now, i dunno how to manage this unbearable pain. All i know is that i am and have to persevere to the end.