It was nice spending some time with eliz on monday. We kindof studied, erm more like i listening to her plan her week. hahahah, but we studied in the end lahh=) We had at least 2hours of seriously studying and went cycling after that! Thank goodness we cycled at remote places because being a really horrible cyclist, it was more like the cars and pedestrians trying to give way to me!! hahaha It was very relaxing spending time with her=)

So, thanks to my christmas 'angel' EVON, i'm totally STUCK in the fantasy of TWILIGHT. Oh man, i hate and love all these girly fantasy. Its bittery sweet you see. You kind of really wanna meet the PERFECT guy who you know will always be there for you no matter what happens, saving you when you're in trouble and he's REALLY cool, maybe not a vampire but the person that everyone loves and he is in love with YOU, the person who is so imperfect!!? I love the book though it kinda affected me a little. HAHA! Cant wait to watch it on mondayyyy!!!! And I wanna get the rest of the booksss!!

I love Friends! Gooing to watch it now!!

I know i can do it, without anyone's help. I have to be strong no matter what's happening, it will be over soon. All of these.

Kind of felt that my life is in such a hugee mess, i duno what i'm doing, my sleeping hours are so odd & i'm wasting my life watching television when i'm suppose to study. Order is not longer in my life. I wanna have a goal in life because i know that we're all made for something big/small in life and if i find it, i would definitely sell my teevee. haha. Somehow i'm so tired of being someone i wanna be. We always wanna be ourselves, but there is often a grey area btw being weird or unique aka 'damm character'. You never know how people will react to your actions and what they really think about you. Dilemma.
Yes, i do care abt how people think about me.
Yes, i can be very shallow.
Yes, i'm always so unsure of myself no matter how hard i try.
I dunno, my life is so bloody screwed up.